All Is Well

I could stand to lose 30 lbs and get in shape.  My finances aren't organized.  I need to get my book finished.  I'd love to pay off my student loans.  I have some important projects on the back burner.  I want to get closer to my family and friends.  I want to have this be an awesome year with my boyfriend.  I want to complete my degree and be admitted to seminary.

I could make a hundred New Year's resolutions.

I'm not doing that.

Instead, I am taking on something that affects every aspect of my life: the view I have of myself, others, and life.

The view, or occurring, that I default to is:  "something is wrong here."

Something is definitely wrong with:
- my waistline/hair/teeth/etc.
- my bank account balance
- the situations people I love are often in
- homophobia/transphobia
- conservative politics/women's rights
- me not starting or finishing things that are important to me
- the way people are/where they live/what they eat/what they do/etc.

For me, this view is draining the joy out of life.  It leaves me stressed, worried, upset, annoyed, angry and guilty.  And I have the feeling of stress and pressure, like I have to do something to fix/help/save people in these situations.  And the people in my life- my friends and family, my coworkers, get to be with someone (i.e. me) who is either trying to fix them, in the "something is wrong here" space or who doesn't stay in communication because I want to avoid that space of worry.  I've been told I seem distant, disconnected, self-righteous or even judgmental when I'm doing all of that.  And I probably am.

I'm not going to honor that in 2014.

I am creating a new view for myself, that All Is Well.  now.  In this moment.  There isn't anything wrong.  I will be practicing the possibility of acceptance and peace.

What I am committed to hasn't changed (yet) and I still may be wanting to address the different aspects of my life, but I am going to do it from the view that "All Is Well."

When I weigh what I weigh, All Is Well.
When someone is doing something against my advice or preferences, All Is Well.
When I am where I am and doing what I'm doing, All Is Well.
When my bank account says what it says, All is Well.
When people I love are hurting/stressed/etc., All Is Well.
When I'm failing, All Is Well.

I have a feeling, the more I practice and create this, the fewer things/situations/people I will see that need changing or fixing.  There might even be a future free of that paradigm in the works.